I think, this sums me up, in the fact that it is late at night and I am doing this in bed, because if I stop and sit, I start to think and the box that I don't want to open starts rattling.
To be honest its the last thing I think about before sleep and the first thing I think about when I wake up.
Today has made this more real, sitting with a special lady in the final stages of secondary breast cancer, the fear that it could be me one day.
How to sit with these feelings and live, can be extremely tiring, maybe that's why I try and pack in as much as I can?
Sometimes the fear can linger, I
long to be able to see my children, find partners, marry and be happy, that is
my hope and so I live in the moment, well try to.
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